“I will not leave you as orphans, I will come to you.”-John 14:18
To be an orphan is to be vulnerable. An orphaned child is at risk for not receiving physical needs such as food and shelter, but just as importantly, relational and attachment needs. If a dependent child loses her primary caregiver as an infant, she will lack basic necessities such as food, water, and shelter unless another caregiver steps in. Because she lacks the ability to care for her own basic needs, she is at risk of physical death.
Yet the risk of relational loss is equally catastrophic. Humans are first and foremost relational. We exist for relationship with God and others. In fact, we cannot know ourselves if we do not know who we are in relationship.
Jesus told his disciples, “I will not leave you as orphans.” He knew that they needed him. They would be able to provide for themselves physically, but without God, they would be left relationally hollow.
When we fail to believe in God’s never ending love, we fear becoming too much for God, afraid that that eventually he will say “you disgust me, away with you.” But God is always present to us, and he will never leave us alone.
Jesus, I know that I need you on a moment by moment basis, but sometimes I forget and lose sight of you. Help me to remember that it is I, and not you, who wanders off. Forgive my wandering heart and draw me back to you again and again. Amen.