When he had washed their feet and put on his outer garments and resumed his place, he said to them, “Do you understand what I have done to you?”-John 13:12

After Jesus finished washing the disciples’ feet, he dressed and rejoined them at the table.  I imagine that the men were experiencing a myriad of sensations, thoughts, feelings, images, and questions.  “What just happened?”  “What did Jesus mean when he said ‘you are completely clean?’” “Who was he talking about when he said ‘but not all of you?’” “Why is Peter always running his mouth?”

Patiently, Jesus looked at each of the men and asked “Do you understand what I have done to you?”  Some of them probably thought, “Why yes, Jesus, you washed our feet.”  Often, we miss the meaning behind what a person says or does.  Some of them likely thought “I have no idea what you did!”  That would be the honest response, but if they were like many of us, they kept quiet.  We are reluctant to voice our confusion to God and others.  We have come to believe godly people should have all the right answers, and so we avoid revealing our naïveté. 

Each of us must answer Jesus’s question, “Do you understand what I have done for you?  Do you know what I have done on your behalf? Do understand the significance of my life, death, and resurrection, and how that affects your life now?”

As we get to know Jesus better, we begin to understand why he came and what he did on our behalf.  He came to save us from the penalty of sin, but he also came to show us a new way to live.

Prayer
Jesus, your earthly life was a demonstration of Kingdom living, built on other-centered love.  Open my eyes that I might understand what you have done for me and in me, so that I might live with gratitude today.  Amen.

For he knew who would betray him; that was why he said, “not all of your clean.”-John 13:11

I have always struggled to make sense of Judas, the betrayer. He was angry and greedy, so he made a deal with the religious leaders to betray Jesus for 30 pieces of silver.  I often wonder, was Judas beyond redemption?  My struggle lies with the fact that I too have betrayed Jesus in my words, thoughts, and actions.  One example that stands out clearly in my mind is when a co-worker asked me if I had been reading anything and I said no because I was embarrassed. Ironically, I was reading a book titled, Jesus the Evangelist. Even Peter, “the rock,” would betray Jesus just a few hours later.  So why did Jesus say “not all of your clean”?  Perhaps Judas did not understand the meaning behind Jesus is life and impending death.  Maybe he did not understand Jesus’s reason for coming or that his cleansing was essential to eternal life.

Matthew’s gospel tells us that Judas “changed his mind, brought the silver back to the chief priests and elders and said ‘I have betrayed innocent blood’” (Mt. 27:4).  I have often wondered if Judas was repentant, or at least hoped he was. I do not think that we will ever know from the text.  God knows.  Regardless, I do not believe that Judas was beyond redemption.

How about you?  Do you understand what Jesus has done for you?  How many times have you betrayed him by how you have treated others?  Have you ever failed to lovingly represent him?  How often has greed or self-centeredness driven your life?  Regardless, you are not beyond redemption.  His offer of complete forgiveness still stands.

Prayer
Jesus, help me to know that I am never beyond your salvation and that no sin is so great that I cannot be cleansed.  Teach me to rely daily upon your purifying grace and remind me that I cannot do it on my own.  Amen.

Jesus said to him, “The one who has bathed does not need to wash, except for his feet, but is completely clean.  And you are clean, but not every one of you.”-John 13:10

Jesus had announced that Peter was “completely clean”–fully forgiven, freely justified, and set free from the penalty of sin.  Jesus made it clear that the person who has bathed does not need to do so again “except for his feet.” 

Although we are set free from the penalty of sin, we are not miraculously free from sinning.  Every one of us still sins daily.  Jesus was telling Peter, and the rest of the disciples, that his forgiveness covers all sin–past, present, and future.

Do you ever struggle with believing God is that good?  Do you have trouble believing that God not only cleansed you, but that he continues to do so, day by day?  Listen, his river of grace never stops flowing over you.

Prayer
Jesus, I am so thankful for your work on the cross, where you delivered me from the penalty of my sin and purified me from all of my unrighteousness.  Thank you for reminding me, through your interaction with Peter that your forgiveness continues day by day.  Help me to live in that freedom.  Amen.

Jesus said to him, “The one who has bathed does not need to wash, except for his feet, but is completely clean.  And you are clean, but not every one of you.”-John 13:10

“You are clean” was an amazing pronouncement.  When Jesus said they were “completely clean,” he meant that sin had no remaining impact on their standing with God. Because of his life, death, and resurrection, sin would no longer have dominion over them.

One of the most precious doctrines of the Christian church is the doctrine of justification.  Justification has to do with our legal standing before God.  We are all guilty of breaking God’s holy law, but we are unable to pay for our release.  Yet because God loves us, he sent his son, Jesus, who willingly paid the penalty for our sins, justifying us before God.  The penalty for sin has been paid.  We are free. We are, as Jesus told his disciples, “completely clean.”

Prayer
Jesus, you tell me, through your word, “You are clean.”  You have justified me, setting me free from the bondage of the sin that entrapped me.  Help me to never lose sight of your finished work and to believe you when you tell me I am clean. Amen.

Simon Peter said to him, “Lord not only my feet but also my hands and my head!”-John 13:9

Peter remained resistant.  Jesus pressed in when Peter tried to get out of the foot washing, reminding him of the importance of their relationship, yet rather than simply accepting the words of his Lord, Peter doubled down.  Put yourself in the room. What do you see?  Peter was guarded. For me, the word “huffy” comes to mind.  The other disciples anxiously watched their interaction. They knew Peter could be a hothead. How would Jesus respond to Peter?  Jesus, remained kind but firm, gentle but insistent.  He never lost sight of his purpose even when he was challenged.

We could consider Peter’s words in a few ways.  Perhaps he recognized the realities of what Jesus was saying.  Maybe he was just being thick (Peter could be a blockhead), saying what he thought would make Jesus happy.  Perhaps he was being sarcastic as a way of covering shame.  I can almost hear him, “If this is so important, why not go even further Jesus?”  Peter’s ill-timed humor was intended to derail the intimacy of the moment, but Jesus did not take his bait.

Like Peter, each of us puts on false masks intended to cover our vulnerability and shame. Many times, our behaviors—for example, sarcasm, anger, or sullenness—drive people away or short circuit intimacy, but praise be to God, Jesus persists.

Prayer
Jesus, Thank you for your persistent love.  You press in even when we seek to escape from your intimacy.  Like Adam and Eve, we attempt to hide from you, believing it is better to be alone with our fear and shame than to be vulnerably present with you, yet you never fail to ask “Where are you?”  Help us to come out of hiding into the light of your unfailing love. Amen.

Peter said to him, “you shall never washed my feet.”  Jesus answered him, “If I do not wash you, you have no share with me.”-John 13:8

How often do we resist what we most need? 

Jesus used ritual during the Last Supper because he knew physical actions help us to remember. He was not only providing verbal instruction in living a life of love, but showing his disciples physically.  Peter was a pretty literal guy. I imagine he was probably the last one to understand the message beneath the message.  Watching Jesus stoop to clean the disciples’ feet, he resisted Jesus, wanting to communicate that he needed nothing, or alternatively, that he was unworthy to be cleansed. But Jesus knew that Peter needed to be reminded of a deeper cleansing, the forgiveness of his sins.

Baptism is a one-time event in the life of a Christian, whether at infancy or as a believer.  Symbolically, we go down into the water in death and are raised in purity to new life.  Sometimes, we forget the truth of our baptism. We need regular reminders of our new purity and of our ongoing dependence upon the forgiving work of Jesus.

Jesus told Peter, “Without receiving my cleansing, you have no relationship with me. If you choose to rely upon yourself, you cannot rely upon me. It is your choice, but you cannot do this on your own.”

I began by asking, “How often do we resist what we most need?”  How frequently do our words, thoughts, or actions communicate our belief that we can manage life on our own?  How often do we downplay our dependency upon God’s forgiveness and grace?  Today, remember your baptism, and remind yourself that you cannot save yourself.

Prayer
Jesus, I often try to be fiercely independent, acting as if I do not need anything from you and trying to manage life on my own.  Yet my sins continue to accumulate and I become overwhelmed by my brokenness.  Remind me again that I need to come daily to the river of your grace and mercy. Amen.

Jesus answered him, “What I am doing, you do not understand now, but afterward you will understand.” -John 13:7

How often do we attempt to make sense of our circumstances from our limited vantage point, even when we do not know all of the facts?  Our rational minds try to make everything fit neatly into a pattern and when we encounter information that doesn’t fit, we have trouble making sense of it.

Jesus was attuned to Peter’s defensive and confused emotional state.  Peter was confused about what Jesus was doing, but he did not have the whole picture.  On this side of heaven, we see only in a mirror dimly (see 1 Cor. 13:12), yet we are asked to place our lives in the hands of the one who sees the end from the beginning and who holds the world in his hands.  Jesus invites us to trust him, saying, “Child, you do not now understand, but one day, you will.”

Prayer
Jesus, so often, this world makes no sense to us. We try, in our limited understanding, to make all the pieces fit.  When they do not, we feel confused and afraid.  Remind us again, dear Jesus, that you hold the world in your hands and that because you are the one who holds the future, we have nothing to fear. Amen.

“Lord do you wash my feet?”-John 13:6

Jesus made his way around to each of his disciples, skipping none.  Not even the betrayer was passed over.  I wonder what Peter was thinking. “What is Jesus doing?  This is a job for servants, not for my friend, my teacher, my Lord.  How could he stoop to this level?  I will just tell him to skip over me; that will prove that I respect him.”  If I had to guess at Peter’s primary emotion in that moment, it would be shame.

For many of us, shame is a frequent, if not constant, companion.  Shame whispers messages such as, “You are unworthy of being loved” or “If that person only knew the wickedness of your thoughts, they would rather spit in your face as soon as accept you.”  Peter was looking for an exit. He did not want to face his shame, so he questioned Jesus.

Many of us act like Peter. Rather than acknowledge our feelings of unworthiness, rather than accept love, we look for exits.  Maybe we use humor as an avoidance strategy, making light of intimacy. Perhaps we turn to anger, because lashing out at another person is safer than accepting grace and love in the midst of our shame.

Prayer
Jesus, you came to show us how to live and how to love. You leaned in to cleanse us from our sin and to daily remind us that in you, shame has no hold, so we no longer have to hide.  Teach us to trust in you and to accept your grace. Amen.

“Then he poured water into a basin and began to wash the disciples’ feet and to wipe them with the towel that was wrapped around him.” -John 13:5

There is such intimacy present in these few words.  If we allow ourselves once again to place ourselves in the upper room, what do we see, hear, and feel?  I hear the splash of the water as Jesus pours it from the pot and I see a stream of diamond lights as the water catches the beams from the lamps.  The disciples were thinking to themselves, what is he doing?  He knelt before each of them setting a wide bowl beneath their feet and pouring the water.

Washing another’s feet is a deeply intimate act.  Perhaps, in that culture, it carried with it no intimacy, but rather was simply viewed as a degraded act to be performed by servants.  Regardless, I cannot help seeing the gentleness and tenderness of Jesus, his rough carpenter hands taking time to clean the soles, and toes, and ankles of these men.

In the 21st Century, in America at least, physical touch–and especially between men–is avoided, or minimized.  It can be threatening, yet Jesus modeled the way we are to be with one another.  Christianity was never meant to be a merely a cerebral faith; it is ruddy.  Earthy.  Incarnate.  I wonder if sexual brokenness would be such a huge issue if nonsexual physical touch was not so quickly shamed.

Prayer
Jesus, Your message is not one of distance, but one intimacy; not of indifference, but closeness.  You call us to lives of love and that involves getting into the dirt with people. Help me, by your Spirit, to be your hands and feet.  Amen.

“Now before the Feast of the Passover, when Jesus knew that his hour had come to depart out of this world to the Father, having loved his own who were in the world, he loved them to the end.”-John 13:1

Jesus was having his last meal before going to the cross. He knew it. He was about to face an unjust trial, a cruel scourging, and a very public crucifixion at the hands of the Romans and the Jews. He could have been anywhere, but he chose to be with his friends. Every time I read John 13, I am captured by the short phrase “he loved them to the end.”  It brings to mind one of my favorite Hebrew words, hesed. Hesed has to do with “the steadfast love of God.”  What does it mean to say that God’s love is steadfast? It means it is unswerving, unfailing, immovable, persistent, and relentless.  It never stops, not ever. The verse does not say “he loved them until they sinned” or “he loved them until he got tired of them.” Even in the face of death, Jesus kept on loving them, with persistence and perseverance. 

Jesus’s love wasn’t just for his disciples. He would gladly have had his last supper with you and me too. Even in the midst of our self-centeredness and our screw-ups, he doesn’t go away. He will keep on loving us in spite of ourselves, not because we are so deserving, but because love is who he is. 

Prayer
Jesus, my love for you is fickle. It changes with the breeze. I am so grateful that your love for me is not dependent upon my conviction, but upon your own, which says that I am your beloved.  You willingly gave your Son so that I can live in your love for all eternity.  Amen.