“A little while and you will see me no longer; and again a little while and you will see me.” So some of his disciples said to one another, “What is this that he says to us, ‘A little while, and you will not see me, and again in a little while and you will see me,’ and, ‘because I am going to the Father’?” So they were saying “What does he mean by ‘a little while?’” We do not know what he is talking about.-John 16:16-18
The disciples had been sitting with Jesus in a fog of confusion. They had been eager to eat this special dinner with him, but then everything went awry. Telling them that they would not see him and then see him added to their confusion. It probably felt like double talk. Although they hung on his words, they could not understand him. What did he mean by going away? He liked to go off by himself to pray. Maybe he needed some time away from the pressure of ministry, yet he said he was going to the Father and they had no idea what that meant. They had many questions and few answers.
We also can feel confused by Jesus’s words. Even when Jesus has spoken clearly and we understand the words themselves, we can get lost in our own preconceptions and expectations. Rather than leaning into Jesus in trust, we can easily overthink what he says.
Jesus, you are not a God of confusion, but clarity, yet I admit that sometimes my thoughts can become a jumble of seemingly incoherent thoughts. If you will, Lord, grant me clarity of thought, so that I might know you and love you better. Amen.