“I still have many things to say to you, but you cannot bear to hear them now.”-John 16:12
In the movie Dumb and Dumber (Farrelly & Farrelly, 1994), Jim Carrey’s character, Lloyd Christmas was talking with his love interest. Although she was kind to him, she was happily married and completely disinterested in him. Forever slow to catch on, he wanted to know his chances with her, so he said, “Just tell it to me straight. Give it to me.”
Sometimes, we want Jesus to give us his message, full force. “Just tell it to me straight. Give it to me.” When it seems like he holding back, we may feel anxious or disappointed. We are uncomfortable with mystery, so we try to take control.
God does not withhold information from us because he is aloof or mean-spirited, but because he merciful. God is complete goodness. In those times when we feel like God is holding out, perhaps that is right where God needs us to be. Why? Because as Jesus told those first disciples, “I have many things to say to you, but you cannot bear them now.” Larry Crabb said that we are called to “tremble and trust” when God’s ways make no sense (Crabb, 2018).
Jesus, I am often impatient and anxious. When I cannot see you working, I try to take over. Forgive my haste. Allow me to rest in your presence, your power, and your provision as I learn to tremble and trust. Amen.